Insomnia is back but I think it's protecting me

All day it's been there a memory I wish wouldn't resurface but it's lingering on the edge wanting to become a nightmare or a flashback as soon as I lower my guard.
But tonight insomnia is preventing me to drift of to sleep but also preventing the memory from slipping into my dreams when I'm asleep.
So I think tonight insomnia is a friend not a foe.

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MyMonstersAreReal · F

Reading this felt like reading something I could’ve written myself. I understand that feeling more than I wish I did—when sleep stops feeling like rest because you’re afraid of what your mind will do the moment you let your guard down.

I’m so sorry you’re carrying something that’s weighing this heavily on you. I really hope tonight gives you some peace, even if it comes in the form of staying awake. And if that memory ever feels too heavy to carry alone, my inbox is always open. You don’t have to go through nights like this by yourself. Sending you a big hug.

Shyguy1992 · 31-35, M

@MyMonstersAreReal thank you so much big hug back to you

Cigarguys · 41-45, C

I hope you can relax and get some much needed rest soon.

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Cigarguys · 41-45, C

@Shyguy1992 it was i couldn't do anything. I almost went to the er but i crashed for 17 hours that night

Shyguy1992 · 31-35, M

@Cigarguys the crashouts can be justvas rough

Cigarguys · 41-45, C

@Shyguy1992 yes it can.

HikingMan · 56-60, M

And there within the memory
Are the things we once forgot
And when they creep back on us
It feels like such a lot

But we got through those past times
And even though we’re changed
A past thought of the bad things
Must be refused its simple claims.

Wishing you a change of mind and some decent sleep.

Rest well.
You got this.

Shyguy1992 · 31-35, M

@HikingMan thank you

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