Can’t sleep…. [I Have Insomia]

@PDXNative1986 I know the feeling. Mines always going too. But I think mine is even going when I sleep because I’m always having these really long ass crazy dreams. Lol

@xsayurix my dreams were insane back when I was recalling them too...

Like really blatantly politcal ones and such...


like the fuck is this... or some video game that only people who played games from a time before they were born the way I do would even dream up...


Really complex shit. If i'd dream journaled them maybe i could hotlink but I didn't.

I remember scant details though of some even many years after. havent remembered any in awhilee thou, it's good cause i was having nightmares a lot before now.

@PDXNative1986 yeah that’s similar to how things are for me. Crazy.

@xsayurix https://voca.ro/18lFABtNSJ73 but of course I have a connection with her I'm pretty sure people would murder to have themselves.... not just her, to be in love with someone who returned those sentiments at all..

@PDXNative1986 that’s really cool! It’s awesome you have such a connection with someone. 😊

@xsayurix Ooo girls border on magical too.... You have no idea.

wil feminist ole me sometimes doesn't want to id that way when in reality am just humble philogynist who of course supports your rights because am too damn smitten not to...


swoon... I guess you could say I am somewhat feverish as in very very very attracted unlike other boys who seem to think pussy is pussy

There are some girls who they call boy crazy, I'm kind of the male equalivant.

quite up the river...

I worry I will overidealize because I know thats the danger, since I look up to women, admiringly.

@PDXNative1986 sorry I’m a bit lost. Probably cause I haven’t slept tonight. Lol but are you talking about the girl you were talking about before?

@xsayurix hehehe https://voca.ro/17cRYdHBz91I

@PDXNative1986 I think I waited too long!! The recording isn’t coming up.

@PDXNative1986 never mind. I got it. I think I pasted it wrong. Lol

@xsayurix All that I said was basically that I'm speaking a little bit broadly but a little bit about her yes.

the word philogynist means
it's honestly one of the most underused words in the english language.

I'm afraid sometimes I'm a little too into them if you get my gist.

it's not -just- attraction it's outright admiration to the point where most of my role models are decisiviely female.

@PDXNative1986 I got it to work and I heard what you said. Yeah I can see what your saying. I’ve always been of the school of thought that both nature and nurture play hand an hand. Though I think nurturing can have a strong effect. Like me got example. I grew up mostly surrounded by men growing up. And I was never forced to be feminine. Like forced into the well “a lady should be this way or that way”. And so over the yrs I’ve noticed that my thoughts tend to seem more inline with a males line of thinking but because I have a woman’s brain so my thoughts have a bit more of a feminine touch, if you wanna call it that. Because tbh most of the time I really don’t understand the way women think. Like logically I get it but at the same time I don’t understand it. Like for example when a girl gets pissed at a guy for spending time playing games. When he’s done everything he needs to. And even if he did pull himself from the game for her. It’s not like she’s gonna spend the whole time with him. She goes an does her own thing. I don’t see the point in any of that.

Hopefully I’m making sense here. Lol

I think it’s really cool though that you admire women so much.