I Have Insomnia

I’m very bad with the self diagnosing thing, but at this point I think I’m beyond just “having trouble sleeping.” I’ve always been a night owl, and I just kind of accepted that 2 or 3 am was my bedtime. It’s not difficult for me to stay awake for 20-21 hrs until I get tired enough that I shut down and crash for about 6-7 hours, but even that’s proving harder to get. I slept for 3 hours yesterday and it’s currently 3 am, and while I know I’m tired, I can’t sleep. I know over the counter sleeping meds are nothing but placebos, but even those don’t work for me. Not being able to stay asleep or even sleep at all is distressing. I cried this morning simply because I was so exhausted but I couldn’t sleep. I would much rather wake up every hour than not sleep at all. This is horrible.