Here we go again, We met again pain.

I accept some of the things that happened was my fault, but do they realize all of it was their fault? If they tried to talk to me then we will still be friends by now, all I did was say how I felt, all I said was I was feeling left out, I understand why you guys are angry at me because you did your best to make me smile and happy, but all of those love you gave me felt like a lie because of too much love, I feel like you guys are here for me because you know my life is messed up and because I just need help, I feel like you guys only loved me because no one trully loved me, and when Im okay it's like you don't even know me anymore, after you guys left me all you did was talk bad about me thats why some people have bad intentions on me now, what did I do to you guys? If you really miss me and stuff then why don't you try to fix it yourself, Im tired of saying sorry, Im tired of trying to fix our friendship, Im tired of you all, all I want is sorry, thats all. But its so hard for you guys to say it, you don't have to say sorry about the past, I want you to say sorry about the present, because after we broke our friendship all you guys did was make me feel like a fool, talk bad about me and said hurtful things about me even when we were still okay, don't you realize that you guys are the toxic one? You judged a lot of people and talk bad and backstab them for no reason, If im matture I should've known you guys from the start, If I was matture enough to realoze what you guys were doing then I will not get close to you guys, you guys even backstab each other.