It really pains when you have a wish and you know you shouldn‘t have it

@Loretta78 Loretta, you have a severe life. Many stresses. Why it isn't wrong to want something just for you even if it disappoints others or causes them to lose you! At the end of the day and even at the end of your life, you have only you. Why can't you have this wish for real? You deserve this.

@PoetryNEmotion I can´t have this wish for real because those people around me are more important than to get this my wish for real. I don´t want to destroy connections just to make my wish real.

@Loretta78 I feel you always put others before yourself, Loretta. While that may be good in a way as it is noble, be careful that you do not live the rest of your life with regret. You deserve happiness. I know this even if you do not.

@PoetryNEmotion Well, in themselves, wishes are not wrong.... but if feelings come into play that simply shouldn't be there or that you can't live out for certain reasons, then the wish isn't wrong, but just unfulfillable ...

@RobinPhoenix True, all that you say. Sometimes wishes keep people alive and living even if unobtainable. Perhaps wishes are dreams that may never come true?

@PoetryNEmotion That's true...they can act as a motor or motivation.... and yet the intense burning inside you hurts every day.

@Annie1899 I do. 😓

@Loretta78 Reading the other comments and the other things you wrote made the situation sound very poetic. Perhaps there is some pleasure in your situation?

@Annie1899 No, Not really.

It is just that I prefer a connection to a human whom I don‘t want to lose because of the wish I am having.

I still have offen this wish in me but I don’t lebt it happen that it dominates my life.

@WaryWitchWandering I agree.