I Am Always In Pain

When I was 8 I started complaining of severe pains in my joints my mum told me to stop telling tall tales, and told my teachers I had a vivid imagination, and was too young to understand the concept of pain... Five years later I'm diagnosed of Anterior knee pain, Iron anaemia (mine causes chronic fatigue, although it's more under control when I remember to take my iron supplements) I forget my supplements a lot because I suffer from anxiety, and depression (possibly manic depression) I also have musculo-skeletal Chronic pain syndrome (which explains itself really muscle, bones, chronic pain.) Benign joint hypermobility syndrome (which is meant to be flexibility but due to muscle weakness it just causes pain and more fatigue, Hip displacia (my hip joint is too shallow allowing my hip to move into very pain uncomfortable positions, and it can dislocate but hasn't since I was 12) All of this amounts to pain daily, and fatigue quite a lot. I was told that I was making it up, imagining it, like I didn't understand what I was saying. Due to all the pressure I've started suffering from back spasms. In my opinion theyr'e the worst, the other pains I'm used to them they're either sharp and brief or achey and constant, but back spasms are different feels like all my muscles are being squeezed and pulled so suddenly that I want to cry, makes it difficult to sit up and stand, I'm told to try go swimming, but I can't take myself to the swimming pool, people don't realise how difficult it is, and they certainly don't realise how much harder words can make it!