My sister was right

I thought the first year of grief would be the worst but you're sort of in a la la land where you're expecting them to come back.
In the second year(I just ended my first year) there is no expectation, no false hopes, and you are living in a reality where you're loved one is not coming back; they are not sharing any more family times with you and they are missing what you know they would have loved.
The shock of them being gone is replaced with the shock of them never coming back.
And it's almost worse than the first shock.
So ,please don't expect the grieving to be better in the second year...