Spiraling (my title)

Spiraling
Falling
Out of control
I get back up
I climb those steps
I think I'm making it towards the top
And then
Free falling into darkness
Landing on a trampoline of false hopes
Which launches me back onto that staircase
I spin
I trip
I fall
Again and again
Back and forth
Up and down
Dizzying
Incoherent
Unconsolable
An endless cycle
Of hopes renewed
Of hopes dashed
Of trying and failing
Will it end
Or am I destined
To climb these steps
Tripping and falling
Almost making it to the top
Only to be hurled back down
And start that cycle once again