No amount, No amount
No amount of drinking, smoking, days off.
No amount of any of it makes me...
I was gonna say, "feel anymore".
But it's feeling that I want to change.
No amount of it takes it away anymore.
I might die young. Or,
I think about the alternative.
I might have 30 more years of.....this.
If I go by my moms time. Or I might have 12 years, going by my dads time.
Or, sooner, if by accident or biological fluke.
I think I need to see the ocean again, to wake up.
Or the forests in northern California.
Life is so amazing. I just feel....like it took away my best friend and anchor. The one person who made me truly laugh and smile. Just seeing my mom made me smile. Just a pure joy.
It's 6:22 on Friday 12/12/25.
Still miss you mom
No amount of any of it makes me...
I was gonna say, "feel anymore".
But it's feeling that I want to change.
No amount of it takes it away anymore.
I might die young. Or,
I think about the alternative.
I might have 30 more years of.....this.
If I go by my moms time. Or I might have 12 years, going by my dads time.
Or, sooner, if by accident or biological fluke.
I think I need to see the ocean again, to wake up.
Or the forests in northern California.
Life is so amazing. I just feel....like it took away my best friend and anchor. The one person who made me truly laugh and smile. Just seeing my mom made me smile. Just a pure joy.
It's 6:22 on Friday 12/12/25.
Still miss you mom
