It's just constant - "There's a melancholy in me that never goes away"
The grief.
It just won't go away.
Granted, I give in to it. I can do things to make it better.
But the complete lack of drive, energy, life.... makes it feel impossible.
My mom was just the last card of my deck.
I feel hollow, empty. Speechless.
I stare at the keyboard keys and just feel my heartbeat. That's all I feel.
Better than nothing.
Billy Bob Thornton described it pretty well, "I've never trusted happiness since... I'm 50% happy and 50% sad at any given moment:
[media=https://youtu.be/4Pn3y7S5FAw]
It just won't go away.
Granted, I give in to it. I can do things to make it better.
But the complete lack of drive, energy, life.... makes it feel impossible.
My mom was just the last card of my deck.
I feel hollow, empty. Speechless.
I stare at the keyboard keys and just feel my heartbeat. That's all I feel.
Better than nothing.
Billy Bob Thornton described it pretty well, "I've never trusted happiness since... I'm 50% happy and 50% sad at any given moment:
[media=https://youtu.be/4Pn3y7S5FAw]
