Are you still traumatized from EP? I had so many bullies there and creeps that harassed me and tricked me I can't forget it🙁

I got bullied relentlessly when I was a kid. I still don't understand why. I have some friends now, but none of them are close. I also have a lot of resentment toward them for how they treat me, but I think I'm traumatized by how I was bullied as a child and how lonely I was through my teen years that I just take it until I can't take it anymore and end the friendship. So I get how trauma can be long-lasting.