I Was A Bully Victim

I was a bit of a nerdy kid: academic and poor at sports. I didn't have many friends, though those I had were priceless and close. I got picked on sometimes, but I shrugged it off and dealt with it intelligently.

I've been thinking about this recently in relation to kids who are victimized by their peers. That, of course, is unacceptable. But I really think that "being bullied" is more a mind-set than a reality in many circumstances.

We're doing kids a disservice by allowing them to become (and regard themselves as) victims in the face of normal childhood struggles.

I'm not normalizing or excusing oppressive behaviour here, but I think that society is doing children a disservice by allowing them to become victims rather than to stand up for themselves (and I don't mean physically, necessarily: I mean psychologically.) It's hardly a good lesson for adult life.

I have never hit a fellow being, but I scared some sad assholes off well and true when I was a child. It may be politically incorrect to say so, but I'm glad I was brought up that way, rather than to feel sorry for myself and blame others.

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SoFine · 46-50, F

The 2 life tools of 1. Self-worth 2. Self-love
They anchor us, to be balanced in life.

How we build them up, is for us each to figure out. Our parents mostly were raised in Dysfunction, they pass this on. Many of those that did the bully, have a bully in their home life, then do the same at school.
Your bully, may have been very insecure, then felt big, to do this to you.

The difference is how long we walk around afterwards mulling over what people said or did. We perpetuate the Victim when we relive this incidents, we keep us stuck.

3 × times I have been told to Kill myself, I can let this get to me, or I can forgive them, in the forgive is the release to me.

Learn to let this past hurt go, else you pile them up as you go on, more hurts will happen, they pile up, let them go.

We can't hide children from pain, we can't. Some will be small pains, yet we don't know, how they get internalized. Each one hangs onto stuff/events, teach them how to let go.

I use meditation to heal my mind, the still, the silence is so free. Free of worry, free of fears. Letting go. Helps not to dwell on old past, old past is full of perception, that becomes cloudy and causes stagnation of the mind.

In each moment is new, in each moment is peace.

To be....at peace.