I Have generalised anxiety. It's like second nature. I have social anxiety that's more noticeable. And I've been attending counselling sessions. Although very deep and personal?. I don't mind saying how I truly feel. I said "I can't connect with the human world as such?". I stated that I was an introvert, and of course that's fine and all! But?, life is too fake, unless I can distance myself, and be true!. I'm a creative and imaginative person,..and even within circumstances, were things are undermined or taken for granted, I still use my vivid imagination to guide me. But when I spoke about the human world I said "Fake"..I then said I wondered if I would like to try new things, and perhaps connect with certain people, but then there comes a certain trend. Every group has its trend!, and in this world were you "fake it, till you make it"..perhaps many people in these social groups are doing the same thing already?? Example: A young group of girls all with the same hair extensions, false lashes, fake tan..but when the Queen Bee suggests something?, what if someone said no? would she still be liked as much?? ..perhaps not??..some people are fake. Then being observant? I've seen the rowdy, and popular one within the groups. They use quiet and introverted people as target practice. To then find other quiet ones joining their group to remain part of the pecking order??..but are they true??.....life is like being served by someone in retail thats friendly, and chatty behind the counter, to then meet them again on public transport were they want to sit alone, without a word.....So I said, I don't follow a pecking order or trend, but I am sensitive and very observant...truth be told anxiety is like a second nature..maybe thats why I'm not much of a smiling person on front of camera...but when someone says smile for the camera....only when its natural x
