It's still early enough to be sad
I am so time conscious, time anxious,
If I need to be somewhere at exactly 10 I will go through minute by minute of how long I need to plan ahead. (aka if I wake up at 9, and it takes 20 min to get to the meet up spot, and I take 40 min to get ready...I need an hour. Calculate for mistakes and I'd say I'd wake up at 8:30 to be safe. that's my mind)
but, home, now, after work, and I saw it's 8pm.
I had just seen something randomly tear inducing.
and I thought, "it's still early enough to be sad".
Because I try to go to bed by 9.
I'm looking into a psychiatrist....not just for that but it's definitely time.
I wanted to share this but now it's 8:36pm and I am getting more anxious.
but drinking enough that ......it's 50/50.
editing for clarity takes so much time.
*lost the post for a bit. when I looked at "drafts" I thought "newest" would be on top. It isn't.
8:41 now.
If I need to be somewhere at exactly 10 I will go through minute by minute of how long I need to plan ahead. (aka if I wake up at 9, and it takes 20 min to get to the meet up spot, and I take 40 min to get ready...I need an hour. Calculate for mistakes and I'd say I'd wake up at 8:30 to be safe. that's my mind)
but, home, now, after work, and I saw it's 8pm.
I had just seen something randomly tear inducing.
and I thought, "it's still early enough to be sad".
Because I try to go to bed by 9.
I'm looking into a psychiatrist....not just for that but it's definitely time.
I wanted to share this but now it's 8:36pm and I am getting more anxious.
but drinking enough that ......it's 50/50.
editing for clarity takes so much time.
*lost the post for a bit. when I looked at "drafts" I thought "newest" would be on top. It isn't.
8:41 now.
31-35, F
