I Have Anxiety

I'm going through what feels like a panic attack... Here's something i wrote to ground myself..

I'm here for you, me. And we'll be here.. All the fragments of your brains...dancing to an unchoreographed song...never in sync with each other. You remain awake at night i know. I don't know if that's good or bad. But i acknowledge you. And yes it's difficult to breathe sometimes. And yes it may seem that your left hand is frozen from knuckle to arm from time to time. But that's okay. We're in this together and we'll sail. This journey has been survival and we'll get through this... Whatever this is. But also, remember that there are others like you. No matter how different and isolated you might feel. Find them from time to time. I know you're not used to having a co-passanger. There's never really one? Is there? But find them. They are your co travelers. They can sometimes makes things less difficult. I know the therapist asked me to have fun along the way. But right now it's time to back away and hold myself together. Put the shattering pieces at one place. It keeps happening. You can't change the past but you now know better than to abandon yourself. You now know better than to completely collapse into this feeling. It would only make you disintegrate further. You have to remain intact into one piece. That's how we function. I acknowledge that my arms feel like there's no blood in them. And i have difficulty breathing. But I'm observing this. I'm here for myself. I can take care of myself. Thank you for being there.