I Have Anxiety

I think so much bad stuff has happened in the past three or four years that it did something to my mind. I’m not really OK anymore.

I lost my mom, I lost my job...I could have lost my relationship, and I had to find another home for my cat. (Luckily, he is with my aunt. That was something to be thankful for.) I’m scared to death of losing anything else. I wonder if I’ll ever feel safe again.

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Mamapolo2016 · F

Feeling safe from bad stuff is an illusion. I know what you mean, though. Between 2014 and 2016, still reeling from my husband's death, I lost my mother, my brother, and my only sister. I had a heart attack, fell off a flight of stairs and got a subdural hematoma (both of those Life Flight helicopter rides). My dog died and after a lifetime in Pennsylvania I moved to New Mexico.

You get to feeling pretty beat up. But if you don't nurture the fear and anxiety, you'll feel safe again. Maybe not quite AS safe.

SmartKat · 56-60, F

@Mamapolo2016 Thank you for posting. I hope you’re right.

Mamapolo2016 · F

I would liken it to walking across the yard. In spring, summer, even fall, you stride across the grass confidently. You don't even think about it usually. When winter arrives, your approach is a little more cautious - but you still walk across the yard.@SmartKat

PhoenixPhail · M

@Mamapolo2016 That's a good metaphor. I like that.

Mamapolo2016 · F

@PhoenixPhail Thank you!

PhoenixPhail · M

@Mamapolo2016 You're welcome.