I Have Anxiety

I spent five years hiding from the world. My comfort zone was my own room. The most secure and safest I felt. In public I was ashamed of who I was. I would overthink everything! I felt like people were judging me on how I looked, walked, dressed and talked. These negative emotions caused me to have regular anxiety and panic attacks. Just thinking of getting a job gave me the most anxiety and panic. So I finally got fed up of fear controlling me that I applied to any job. I was called to work for a meat department. I knew nothing of meat and cried the first day lol due to overwhelming anxiety. I was then one of the best in the department. I then decided to face another fear. Crowds of people. I applied for the airport and got hired. I never thought I would be working in my life and never in a airport!!! I still have anxiety but it’s doesnt control me that much anymore. Everyday is a challenge with my mind and a battle between what is reality and what my mind creates. Face your fears! Anxiety is just a feeling not a fact. In reality the real world is not as bad as we think it is. I have to keep reminding myself that.