I Am Worried and Anxious

I never thought I'd say this...But I remember 1 year ago I had chatted with a girl either the same age or 1 year younger than me on here. I won't say what the picture we both sent were, but she had told me it would be okay (I was very unsure at the time) and that if she showed a picture of her then I would have to send one of myself (I hid my identity). But now at 18, I remember and realized something wasn't right about what we did. I've been looking for her on here to get in contact with her to tell her what we did was a mistake. But I can't find "M". So I have no clue what to do, I won't search anymore for now since there's more important stuff for me to finish. But it does suddenly hit me and get me anxious and worried at weird times. I just hope "M" messages me or I find her and message.

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rottenrobi · 56-60, F

Don't worry. I think you're safe from any problems.
Trust your feelings, whether you want to or not, they're usually good indicators.

KandiGhostcat · 22-25, F

@rottenrobi I do at times listen to my feelings, and I do need to tell other people if I am uncomfortable with something. And that can be hard at my age cause we don't want to upset the other person. I should be safe from problems, which that may be true as I have many of those.

rottenrobi · 56-60, F

@KandiGhostcat I understand how challenging it can be to trust your instincts and act on them. You sound like you're a very logical person which will take you far. I'm sorry you're having a lot of problems.

KandiGhostcat · 22-25, F

@rottenrobi I am a person that does deep thinking and such, simply because of my sensitivity (or I think it is). Some of the problems just need to be helped solved by a therapist and counselor that's in the medical field of Anxiety. Or a therapist/counselor who actually has experience and is in that field (better). My anxiety can end up making me remember certain things, especially from the past and that is just something I've had to deal with for years. I have pills for my anxiety but I don't take it since I think I need actual help rather than just taking a drug. Cause there's problems medication can never fix. And I think it's best to get to the root of some of these or just helping me to understand what else is wrong. Some of them I've figured (or concluded) the cause of said problems. But I know I can't fully solve them on my own of what to do. Plus I just need to overcome the past stuff and move on with life. Otherwise I'll still be clung on by the past.

rottenrobi · 56-60, F

You are an incredibly intelligent young woman. I think your deductions are accurate and if you can find someone, a therapist, whom you can trust to give you good information and help you get through the past, you will have a much better life. Sort through this stuff now, when you're young, just to simplify your future.
Please stay positive.
I wish you all the best.