I can't even pretend anymore.

I'm just sad. I used to hide it with a smile, but now I can't. I thought once I graduated and followed my dreams, I'd be happy, but it's the total opposite. I feel empty. I feel dead inside. Perhaps it's all the trauma I've dealt with growing up coming to the surface forcing me to deal with it finally instead of ignoring it. I thought I healed but maybe not... Damn. When does it get better? Does it? I've been there for everyone and now it's time to be selfish and cut those who don't look for me off. It's time I give to myself. My soul is tired. 😔

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Friendlyperson · 26-30, F

I really suggest you see a therapist if you can afford it. Please don't suffer alone and for long periods of time, please take care of yourself and do yourself justice by seeking help. It will be okay eventually, even though it doesn't seem like it now.