When you’re sad and people tell you to be more, do more…

@SW-User That makes sense and the analogy hits home for me. I have a foster niece (soon to be adopted) that was born addicted to drugs. Because of that early exposure to potent drugs the specialists said she would probably be non verbal and need assistance in her day to day life. My sister wouldn't accept this for a child, especially this one. With my help, she didn't give up. Today, that child is still developmentally delayed (rolling my eyes at this terminology) .... but she not only talks, but does it nonstop. She still has a lot of mountains to climb but had we listened to others she would still be that non verbal child locked inside herself. My point is this. . . From what I have read from you, you love your child and I am almost 100% certain that you live primarily for that child and you are going to make decisions you feel are in his best interest even if it means sacrifice on your part. You are a good mom and you keep using those gut instincts and you will get through. And if someone gives you advice smile and do what you think is best.

@Fungirlmmm That’s beautiful 🖤 Truly an amazing example of how you can get someone through their struggles if you understand and care and are patient while they learn.

Thank you for sharing 🖤

I am a human sacrifice at this point 😆 but I’m okay with it. My son is an awesome person and I’m building us a life from ashes. I try to parent myself as best I can because there’s literally no one to call or care when I’m hurting. I have fibromyalgia and ptsd, I’m charging at life every day with all I have because 8 year old boys don’t take it easy 😆 I feel its killing me and it’s just disappointing. If one person cared about me, I know I could give so much more. I don’t need much to fill up either.

I am changing and learning and building, I never quit, but when I think of what it’s costing me, it’s not fair to my son 😞 He is the one that really deserves more. I’m worried I will die young like my parents, so my daily existence is just to build a life for him so he’ll be okay when I’m gone.

@SW-User I don't have answers but I see part of my life story in yours so if you need to talk away from eyes feel free to message me.

@Magenta Exactly. None of belongs in a box. I think it does more harm than good.