I had another procedure today. Without anesthesia 😂😂😂😂

😂😂 because my heart wasn't doing well so I said they should do it without and get it over with. I can't really postpone this shit anymore. I want the whole thing wrapped up in one month.

My surgeon initially said I am insane. But it turned out I was right. The sedation is part of my problem and he ended up praising me for my wit.

And while the procedure is painful af, I sure feel way better compared to last time. The pain is bearable. I just need to not work until Friday and relax to allow the roof of my mouth to heal.

My surgeon apologized to me repeatedly. It was kinda cute. And I had to blink repeatedly to make him understand it is not a problem. I tend to lift my knee while in pain so he could understand it was getting intense.

I have been through worse than this. And I have had to do worse than this as practitioner watching , hearing and feeling people suffer while you try to fix the problem can be as traumatizing as going through the experience yourself

For me this wasn't traumatizing and I am glad I did it this way. I will probably do the same next week.