I spent most of the day in varying states of disassociation.

From feeling floaty and hollow to feeling a little more alert but zapped of all energy.....

Every little thing has been overwhelming and I almost cried at work as a result. I learned two of my coworkers are leaving soon. One graduates soon and has an internship he will be gone in 2 weeks. Another landed a new job at a burrito shop that's new. I'm happy for them but I also wish for that to be me. Both of them are good guys but I wish I could leave too. No doors are opening for me and I'm afraid I'm stuck.

I don't know... I really am not doing well.