Why I feel scared to be hopeful and happy ?

I feel something bad might happen if I start to be happy.

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It's from trauma and hypervigilance. You learn to believe that you don't deserve to be happy, and/or if you are happy, it's because you missed something.

It's only a trick of the mind. You deserve to be happy.