Suicidal boyfriend

I've been planning on leaving my very rude boyfriend, however, I heard him say that he's still suicidal and has been thinking about it again recently. I know I've made some posts venting about his attitude, that aside, I once loved him so I still care a bit and don't want to add to his suicidal thoughts. He bought me a teddy to say thank you for being there for him, which is sweet. It doesn't change anything but now I'm depressed because leaving is what I'm working towards and this situation makes it more difficult.

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ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

He knows exactly what he's doing 🫩

I met a guy, it was ultra romantic at first, very compatible, but then I realized he was batshit in ways that scared me. I left him and he did kill himself. I wrestled a bit with blaming myself, but I also knew damn well he was not okay to begin with. I might have been the last straw, but I wasn't going to put my son and myself through his nightmare to save him. It's nature. Save yourself.

Throw the drowning man a life safer or go down with him.

He knows what he's doing. It's classic. My last ex would put me on a rollercoaster. Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde. Up and down. Make me crazy and insecure. So I always came back to him. He isn't better or worse, he's messing with your head thinking about himself and what he wants. It's sick.

SinlessOnslaught · M

@ScreamingFox I understand what you're saying but this doesn't apply to each and every situation.

UltimateDemiGoddess · 31-35, F

@ScreamingFox I'm glad that you had the courage to leave. Really sorry to hear that he committed suicide. Glad that you were strong and did not blame yourself or feel accountable. Very intelligent of you.

How can I be sure that he's messing with my mind and not being genuine?

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@SinlessOnslaught fair enough. But I've read her posts about him, and she wants to leave... It seems like he's feeling the distance and trying to close the gap by playing sweet. @UltimateDemiGoddess You know you don't want to be with him, you know it's not going to work, you know why. You cannot be responsible for him if your heart isn't in it. If you love him and cherish your relationship, you stay and work on it. It seems like you go back and forth, up and down and I know what that does to your nervous system. I know why people do that to one another. You can help him in ways (throw him a lifesaver), but you don't have to sacrifice your life for him.

UltimateDemiGoddess · 31-35, F

@ScreamingFox you're completely right in saying that. I feel like I need someone to walk me out of here that's why I keep posting about it I guess.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@UltimateDemiGoddess I've been there, it's SO hard. They know what they're doing and it's not fair. Like they've got barbwire around your heart so you won't leave. He's syphoning you of your good nature.

Getting away from it is a process. It takes too long. If I was there I'd walk you out. I wish someone could of drug me out, but we gotta do it the hard way.

I'm sorry. You'll never pick a guy like that again once you get away and start to realize what he's been taking.

UltimateDemiGoddess · 31-35, F

@ScreamingFox I'm glad you come out of yours and strong enough to do it on your own.

I'll definitely never pick a guy like him again.

ScreamingFox · 41-45, F

@UltimateDemiGoddess I wish you the best. Take really good care of yourself 🖤

UltimateDemiGoddess · 31-35, F

@ScreamingFox thank you very much