Tired of the back and forth

Tired of doing well just to do bad all over again. I'm tired of being emotionally hijacked. As much as I love being a people pleaser and meeting needs, I think I'm in a place where I'm wanting to get my needs met. It's strange. I've never had the desire to fulfill anything for myself. I was perfectly content just being used.... But with lack of consistency and frequency... I'm just less interested..