The crazy in my head

So I talked to my therapist and I'm going to stay on my depression meds. He felt a change right now would not be wise. He wants me to get one of those watches that track your heartbeat and I'm to check my blood pressure twice a day.

With Star staying and wanting to watch the kids this summer I pulled them off the list for summer camp. They will still be going to Joel's grandmother as well but Star will be going as well to help her out with the boys.

We are officially house hunting because we need more space

I'm doing my at home sleep study tonight so hopefully I'll get some answers next week. I am exhausted.

We're taking our daughter to her neurologist next week. I'm supposed to keep track of any unusual movements we notice until then and what setting she was in and if she had her air pods in. Track her mood as well. She's almost always calm and quiet.

I'm very worried about Joel's back. Like I said he missed volleyball practice. His ex wife was there and she said that was very unusual. When we got home the boys ran to hug him and I could see that hurt him. He usually picks them up and carries them to bed but he didn't. When we did another picnic dinner on the floor he sat in a chair next to us and I ate more than him last night.

He told me he can't miss work because it's a holiday weekend and they are already behind on order. He said he'd go next week if it was still bothering him. He didn't sleep good and he barely eat his breakfast before he left.

I'm going to see a today because I keep getting bladder infection.

And my tiny tornado was full of energy this morning.

So see guys I told you I'd bring the crazy back. I know this stuff seems pretty routine but man it's just hard for me to deal with all this stuff at once. This is another reason why my therapist didn't want to make a change right now. Because I'm barely keeping it together right now as it is.