I would like to introduce you to the concept of Benevolent Nihilism. Ultimately, nothing really matters. But because of that, we can define our own metrics of what success and failure are. We can determine what matters to us. Break away from thinking about all of the things you do not have. Where you are at right now? That is alright. We can take a breath. No need to panic. Life is a journey.
From here, think about what matters to you. Not what the world tries to tell you matters to you. What actually matters? Narrow the expectations upon yourself so you can focus more. There is no rush. Only the time you set for yourself. Life is a journey, there will likely be detours and road construction and getting lost on the way. But that is alright.
Our society has reached a point of demanding instant gratification in everything, including success and life results. And that is causing massive amounts of mental health problems when we can't meet those expectations of instant success. Instant success sounds good, but we have to let go of it.
I'm open if you wish to discuss more. I hope the days ahead are more fortunate than the ones you have just been through.