ngl guys i think i need help 😀

i don't talk about it because i don't have the sexy/aesthetic depression. it's the real bad kind.

i've been too depressed to work. i want to work, sincerely, but i fr feel like i don't exist and feel stuck/frozen/paralyzed in a way i cant explain. but i can't get help because i'm not working. i've spent nearly 48hrs rolling in and out of sleep lol

but on the bright side when you're sleepy depressed you spend more time in rem which means more dreams for me 🥰 in ten years, after my reactive dog passes of age, i want a couple of rats and i had a dream just now i ignored a rat in my room and he evolved into a soft rat-armadillo hybrid that gave headbutts like a cat. if it wasn't for the stress of it and several other animals breaking into the house i would have loved him forever 🙏