I feel like I can't count on anyone close to me, they say I can but don't seem to help much

This comes from wanting to go out more, have more friends, have a job for a while, which are things I am being denied right now. It's like I'm a bit of Rapunzel of Tangled, but I do go out (mainly with my relatives), I have a small gig too, but it's not like a full salary, it's not even a third of one. My mom is overprotective and wants me to study more after college, instead of trying to get a job soon, but I'm really thinking of gathering money and use it to rent my place. I can't talk to her many things, so when I have mental issues it's hard to tell her, when I'm wanting to make real friends it's hard cuz she's over judgmental and prejudiced, when I'm thinking about dating someone I get anxious cuz I sometimes assume she won't let me due to prejudice against the person, etc... I've been in love with this guy for some months now, I'm finally letting him go since we talked about stopping, and I feel like many things that led to the failure of it were due to anxiety related to her as well.. I'm so done, so so done with this.