This really sucks

Not to bring anyone down but today sucks and just reminds me of how alone I am. I despise all my relatives, all my so called friends long since abandoned me and no longer talk to me. I’ve done nothing for a month except write and watch the same crap. I just feel exhausted all the time for some reason, probably because I have no set sleep patterns. I feel super tired today and have no idea why. I just feel so crappy and tired. I really need to find a new job already and in two weeks Ill be starting classes again at least so I’ll have that. I just need something to get my heart pumping somehow, something to cheer me up. Maybe there will be a miracle and one of the literary agents will respond with a yes for once.