I hate my Calfs

I never seen a women with the calf’s I have and I don’t work out, it’s so ugly because I’m short, I feel like it’s so unattractive, it’s make me look very manly . Even my feet are big and fat like a man . Why did I have to get manly features , how can you actually attract a man if I have manly feature, I feel like i just attract in the closet men and insecure men. I don’t think a man could actually love me for me. I do love myself af t times but then I look in the mirror I don’t have a lot of feminine features. I hate it. I’m chubby and it makes everything worse , iv been trying to starve myself because I’m just so unhappy.