How often do you feel that you are unattractive? And people think you are self deprecating on purpose because they can't see what you are seeing..

True that. I'm not those people that are just blessed with good looks and look like they can have a successful career with it. I'm just "typical" in the way I feel about my body for my age, although there are things I am working on changing to be the best version of myself. But even when I do reach my goals, I still won't have a field of f to give about other people's "beauty standards". Lol Those change with every person you meet.