The anti-sexual path part 2
I’m going to just use this title concept whenever I want to discuss something but I need people to know it’s coming from someone who experienced CAS but ended up anti-sexual/touch. The hypersexuals and people who don’t have sexual trauma I feel ruin the vibe of my posts.
Something I learned that helped me with sex is to not think about the act as I’m doing it.
I think this confuses people but it might help the other anti-sexuals out there.
When I think about what I’m doing I freak out, feel gross. To me, sex was always shameful because I didn’t have body autonomy in my childhood (my abuse was not one off, my cousin who is 11 years older abused me). What men did to me was never a choice and something I despised.
So when I don’t think, and only focus on how I feel in the moment, I can actually have sex and enjoy it.
Something I learned that helped me with sex is to not think about the act as I’m doing it.
I think this confuses people but it might help the other anti-sexuals out there.
When I think about what I’m doing I freak out, feel gross. To me, sex was always shameful because I didn’t have body autonomy in my childhood (my abuse was not one off, my cousin who is 11 years older abused me). What men did to me was never a choice and something I despised.
So when I don’t think, and only focus on how I feel in the moment, I can actually have sex and enjoy it.
