I Need God Not To Put This On Me

Cause I can't go on anymore. I want to buy pills and drink them all at once. I don't know why I'm still alive. I haven't known for a long time. I'm dealing with the same issue over and over again. I can't go on like this 😭😭😭😭😭.

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Xalvadora · 18-21, F

You know, tell this to a Christian, they'll tell you to pray. But my agnostic ass will tell you that there are so many ways to cope with depression or whatever you're dealing with. There's no cure for it, you'll just have to cope with it until you die. I agree that, at this point, why not just die? We'll never be cured of a disorder that we are diagnosed with. This also questions whether anyone is truly happy. This is something God cannot take away. If God really is listening, then why did he give us cancer cells? We all have cancer cells, which is how cancer forms. If he really was listening, there wouldn't be any hunger in the world and no homeless people. This makes me think that he's biased. If he can't help struggling Christians with their mental health, or take it away for good, then what's the point of praying? If you pray, what would the results be?

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Thandeka · 31-35, F

@Xalvadora Thanks for your concern dear. I really appreciate it. I'm not suffering from depression. That's a thing of the past. I suffered from depression for more than a decade. I didn't think it was possible to live without it but guess what I woke up one day and it was gone. Like totally gone. And I didn't pray for God to take it away. He did it because he saw that I was so used to it that I didn't see myself living without it. I thank him for saving me from that mental jail cell everyday. It's just right now I'm going through something that's so frustrating and want it to just end. I'm getting impatient, like really really impatient. That doesn't mean God is not hearing me because I know for a fact that he does. It just it feels like he's taking forever to answer 😭.

cherryxblossom

@Xalvadora I was never trying to be rude or disrespectful toward you, no need to act so. Your very first statement was stereotyping Christians. According to what you’ve said, we’re on the same page about stereotypes though. Glad to hear it. Our own experiences don’t cover everyone’s experiences though. I know what an experience is. lol. I’ve had horrible experiences with Middle Eastern men, but I’m not going to make any general statement about all of them as a whole due to my own experiences. I wasn’t trying to attack you or belittle you or anything. And I’m certainly not trying to argue over anything. Lol I just found the way you phrased your view on Christian’s vs your agnostic approach as belittling Christianity. Clearly that wasn’t your intention. That’s why words are so important though…Anyway, have a nice day

Chickie · F

I am also still going through a lot with the same things I've dealt with in the past and I keep asking myself "Why do I bother to keep trying?" Things only got a little better for me but life doesn't get better like everyone says.

Thandeka · 31-35, F

@Chickie I'm sorry for everything you're going through. I hope the cycle breaks and you never have to deal with the same thing ever again [b]*hugs*[/b] I've come to realize that our thoughts play a big part in how we view every situation we go through.

Lilnonames · F

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