Im so done with everything

I said it wouldn't happen again, but it did. I overdosed on antidepressants and ended up in the ER for the 5th tine this year, I've already been on the psych ward a couple of times and im probably going back now that this happened. I don't feel bad or regret abt what I did tho, im tired of people telling me that I'll make my friends and family sad... WHAT ABOUT ME, WHY WOULD I CARE ABOUT SOMEONE ELSE MORE THAN MYSELF? I am so fucking over it, people putting how other ppl would feel abt my death over how i feel to want to kms so bad is ridiculous. I don't fucking care about my health or physical state anymore why would I care abt how someone else feels abt me wanting to end this suffering. Hypocrites