Suicidal people and how they leave people around them feeling guilty

I have a friend that I've known for years now, ever since I met her she's been sad, depressed and needy.

At first I thought I'd listen to her, care for her and be there for her whenever she needed, it went on for about 2 years, I spent days and nights listening to her endless nags and whines about everything and everyone, it damaged myself too since I've been struggling with depression but I don't talk about it.

After that many days and years I finally noticed that this is the pattern of her behavior, she doesn't try at all to get better not one single effort did she make, I also realized the reason behind her behavior but I won't go into those details.

After that I used covid quarantines as an excuse to stay away from her and her negative energies but then she started attempting suicide, saying nobody cared about her and with that I fell in her circle of depression plus now suicidal thoughts.
Ngl it took me again a while to notice it was her new method to get attention. After that I began ignoring her more.

Till a few days ago she texted me and said "hey Nano I don't feel good at all" which I ignored, today she called me, she had a confused and tired tone, told me she's hospitalized because she attempted suicide......

Now it wasn't my fault, I had 10000 reasons for staying away from her, she ruined more than 2 years of my life (I know it was my own fault too)
But guilt is knocking at my door.... "if u replied to her text it might've been prevented"

sarabi · F

At least you're aware. And you can't prevent someone from doing anything to themselves unless you put them in asylum, even that.
We need to help people as much as we can, but not at the cost of our lives.
A person that doesn't want to be helped, can't be helped. You can do only as much, and you're not professional. People with suicidal thoughts need professional help and opinion because that's a disorder.

Whatever happens, you shouldn't feel guilty about something that was never in your control.

Also, some people know only how to live life by consuming other people's energies,like a parasite, bc they weren't taught how to produce their own, or don't wanna learn how to. And parasites in nature aren't all that bad, except when they overtake the host.

Wish you and your friend all the best

Nanori · F

@sarabi

some people know only how to live life by consuming other people's energies,like a parasite, bc they weren't taught how to produce their own, or don't wanna learn how to

Thissss