Why haven't you comitted suicide?

There's a tiny hope in me that wants to see where my life goes before committing suicide

When I was younger, I feared it would make my sadistic mother way too happy. And now that I'm older, Mr. D is coming for me pretty soon no matter what I do.

My son I would never cause him that kind of pain no matter how bad it gets for me. I love him too much to do that to him

too many dependents

Because at that time I had small children, and although it was agony to wake up to the reality - that my soul mate was dead - I couldn’t bare for my children to grieve as I was grieving.

Long story short, There were some things I wanted to be alive for.

No,NO and NO!

Ineptitude