Honestly I feel dead

I don't want to move. I don't want to work. I'm done feeling things. I have been drinking to numb it all. Ive even gone to the extent to mix weed with alcohol which I shouldnt. But then again, I can't sleep.

I feel so much of everything hitting me harder now. Imagine waking up to feel worthless. Not matter. You feel empty and then you need to go on with the day. If I could, I'd take it all away but I can't. At least as of now. I'm biting my tongue and holding onto the rope despite me bleeding from holding on.

I want to let go. Not remember anyone and just go away with the wind.

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elafina · 36-40, F

Hey man... sorry to hear it .. you write it so vividly this with the rope.. Let it go perhaps you will fall into a cold river and the shock will clear you up... I hope you went to sleep. Go to nature if you can, she's the greatest healer.. do nothing, just go and trust your body to her to balance it out, she knows how. I'm sorry you're going through this and sending you a hug 🤗

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@elafina I'm trying. My mental health isn't the best apparently.

elafina · 36-40, F

@Beatbox34 when life gets tough it means you are about to call new forces from within...you will do it dear, you will go through this...rest...🌒💜

Beatbox34 · 31-35, M

@elafina Thank you for this. This means a lot to me.

Maybe one day I'll get out of this.