Maybe I'm Destined To Be A Nobody
The same mistakes, the same habits, the same addictions, the same escapism. An ostrich with it's head in the sand. Given so many opportunities to grow, to change, to achieve, to start fresh, and nothing to show for it but a trail of disappointed faces once alight with the hope of my potential, eager to see me flourish. Elequent but unmotivated. Contemplative but complacent.
It's my senior year. You'd think I'd have learned to be better. Even with my family shit there's just no excuse. Maybe I'm gonna be homeless. Stuck in a dead-end lifeless job. With the amount of times I've failed in classes here, the chances I've wasted, I've disappointed myself and it feels like there's nothing I can do anymore to make myself do the tasks at hand.
Missing deadlines, reluctant to make lists, seemingly unable to concentrate. I can't just take more time off of school as a senior and having already taken time off of school. I'm already 22, gonna be 23 in January. I'm running out of time and options and I only feel the urgency when it's too late.
It's my senior year. You'd think I'd have learned to be better. Even with my family shit there's just no excuse. Maybe I'm gonna be homeless. Stuck in a dead-end lifeless job. With the amount of times I've failed in classes here, the chances I've wasted, I've disappointed myself and it feels like there's nothing I can do anymore to make myself do the tasks at hand.
Missing deadlines, reluctant to make lists, seemingly unable to concentrate. I can't just take more time off of school as a senior and having already taken time off of school. I'm already 22, gonna be 23 in January. I'm running out of time and options and I only feel the urgency when it's too late.
22-25, M
