If only I had known

How I wish I could undo some things I’ve done, Things I did yesterday and especially when I was young. My heart is filled with lament and angst since I’ve grown, How all would be discrepant if only I had known. Someone said time is the healer of all, My memory is filled with grief, it hurts to recall. Anguish and torment haunt me as seeds resown, I ponder how things could be different, If only I had known. There was one I loved so dear, After time, her true feelings became quite clear, My heart bleeds and my soul still moans, I would have run from her, If only I had known. To this day I’m a prisoner to my mental pain, No way of escape, not with this ball and chain, I could be free as a bird that’s just flown, If only I had known. I feel as one that’s spent months training for a race, With a burning desire to come in 1st place, I never understood what went wrong, No one told me when to run, How did I miss the starting gun? Even though surrounded by love ones, I still feel so lonely and alone, How wonderful life could’ve been for me, If only I had known.