What do I do??

I know the feeling. I'm almost a year clean, and I've had anxiety attacks and breakdowns that get more severe the closer I get to that number. It's killing me not doing it. You just have to keep fighting though. You've made it so far already and how far you've come is an incredible accomplishment. I haven't been clean from self-harm longer than I am now since I was a kid. You can do this. Draw, color, listen to music, talk to a friend, go for a walk, exercise, watch tv. Distract yourself. Remind yourself how strong you are and how far you've come and how much farther you'll go. I know how hard this can be, but you can do it. You've already proven that.

Remember the negative aspects of it. And, if you regret your scars at all, then you shouldn't want to add more.

Your feeling that way, because you require a coping mechanism, and you clearly don't have one. You need to displace all that twisted energy inside you. Get rid of it. Channel it into a different thing.

First, you must ask yourself why you want to cut. If you find the answer, then find a different way to obtain this thing that you want.

https://www.helpguide.org/articles/anxiety/cutting-and-self-harm.htm

Do you think giving blood would help? You feel the pain of the needle, then watch the blood pouring out of yourself into a bag.

Plus you help others!

2 years is really gud going.... u have come so far, u don't want to fall back.... ok, why do u feel u need to cut again? resolve that issue & u will be fine.... if u need someone to talk to.... message me! :) be glad to help... if not me, turn to a friend or a family member.... u don't need to cut again!

Imagine a priceless painting in a museum made by a historical painter. It's so beautiful people from all over the world travel to view it.

It's worth millions and it's so valuable it's closely guarded.

Now imagine someone running by with a knife and cutting the painting....an amazing piece of artwork ruined.
People are shocked and saddened about the event.

You are much more valuable than any painting.

Get a hobby to occupy your mind with. Or start smoking.

It's stupid. Don't go back to being stupid.

Please don't do it.

replace the urge with something else
remove temptation