Demons are real
Although I have struggled and fallen away from God many times he has not given up on me. Most recently I flirted with Buddhism and God put people on the path to challenge me and steer me back to him. I am human I make mistakes sometimes but one thing I know for sure is demons are real. Whilst I was with the cult I was walking through town with some others in the cult. We encountered a man who was really drunk. I sensed evil around him and something unseen rushed at me and almost bowled me over leaving me confused. That's the first time I felt a demon. About twelve years ago after I left the cult I fell into witchcraft. I was rebelling against God at the time. To start with nothing weird happened until I started doing rituals. One day during one I felt something in the circle with me it brushed against my legs twice. I thought I was imagining it until I went to pack away and one of the candles was a foot outside the circle. It was in a heavy candle holder ad there were no windows open it was very strange. Over the next few years I delved into darker magic and satanism. One day during a ritual I was recording myself on webcam. I started to call on demons and I felt a weird energy feeling go up my arm. I must have blacked out because I woke up on the floor. When I played the recording back there were voices on it. I used wavepad to clear them up. They said 'thanks for letting us in, now we will never leave I was terrified. Things escalated from there. At nights just as I got into bed I would feel something heavy crawl on me. Plus what felt like lots of hands push up under the mattress. It happened every night I was terrified and went both to a psychiatrist and the local priest. The psychiatrist said I did not have anything like schizophrenia just anxiety. The priest blessed my home but it continued. I started to pray every night for months but they did not leave. Whenever it crawled on me at night I could not move not speak. So just called out in my mind Jesus help me and it would retreat. One night I got angry and shouted at it to get off me but it just used its evil energy to force me further into the bed. I asked Jesus for help again and it left me. One night I'd had enough and told them God is watching over me you can't hurt me. It stopped! This would happen for a period of time. But if I missed a few nights prayer they would come back. In the end I would pray every night. It took ten years to get to a point wherein I can sleep without praying but I still try to remember to most nights. Most people involved in the occult experience strange phenomena. They just don't know what they are. My story is true, I really felt these things. Whether you believe it possible is up to you.
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