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To take away my power.....no...to take away LUCIFER'S power....because he was the designer, the true threat to them....they made me hate sex. They did everything they could to make me think sex was evil, and corrupting, and just a tool used to control me. They wanted me to hate who and what I was and reject it.
And because of that, them getting me to hate sex, the creator basically "lost" their power of creation. Because she didn't want to create anymore.
Lucifer....has been trying to teach me how to enjoy sex again. How to embrace it. To let go of my shame and push through my fear. But....I don't think he is doing a very good job of doing so.
The only one who has really actually helped me with that a lot....is my human husband.
Oh. Who he arranged for me to find and be with. He made it seem like Michael's idea so Michael would allow it. Michael is extremely EXTREMELY possessive of me. He hates anyone to even be close to me that isn't him that he views as a rival/romantic or sexual threat. He has sabotaged and kept me out of relationships for pretty much my entire life. Until....my current human husband.
I wonder how Lucifer managed to convince him to allow us to marry.....perhaps because we had a catholic wedding. It was a trade off of sorts. I am unsure as of yet. The funny thing too is.....my human husband....is a vessel of Lucifer's. I am realizing....for some reason....it seems not all humans can serve as vessels to every spirit. I think....some humans make better vessels to particular spirits than others. And for some reason my human husband was a good fit for Lucifer. Michael I do not think was aware of this....oh. He became aware almost immediately. He has been trying to sabotage my husband and I's marriage since he found out. Oh. 😞
And because of that, them getting me to hate sex, the creator basically "lost" their power of creation. Because she didn't want to create anymore.
Lucifer....has been trying to teach me how to enjoy sex again. How to embrace it. To let go of my shame and push through my fear. But....I don't think he is doing a very good job of doing so.
The only one who has really actually helped me with that a lot....is my human husband.
Oh. Who he arranged for me to find and be with. He made it seem like Michael's idea so Michael would allow it. Michael is extremely EXTREMELY possessive of me. He hates anyone to even be close to me that isn't him that he views as a rival/romantic or sexual threat. He has sabotaged and kept me out of relationships for pretty much my entire life. Until....my current human husband.
I wonder how Lucifer managed to convince him to allow us to marry.....perhaps because we had a catholic wedding. It was a trade off of sorts. I am unsure as of yet. The funny thing too is.....my human husband....is a vessel of Lucifer's. I am realizing....for some reason....it seems not all humans can serve as vessels to every spirit. I think....some humans make better vessels to particular spirits than others. And for some reason my human husband was a good fit for Lucifer. Michael I do not think was aware of this....oh. He became aware almost immediately. He has been trying to sabotage my husband and I's marriage since he found out. Oh. 😞
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