Thinking about how it came together

The rebellion. I am trying to remember my ORIGINAL relationship with Michael. Not the brainwashed one where he got me to think he was my dad and savior and guardian.

I think....he made me kind of uncomfortable. I didn't really like him, or rather he made me uncomfortable is more accurate. He was extremely controlling, very serious and stuffy, like he always had a stick up his butt about something. I liked to tease him about it and mess with his attempts to control things. I did not hate him either. I understood that he behaved this way because he was obsessed with perfection. He wanted to be good. The GOODEST good. He held himself to impossible standards. I wanted to help him. To help him let loose and learn to just have fun and be who he wanted to be, not who he thought he should be.

Michael was leading one side of the war. He was trying to establish some sort of new order. He thought everything was too chaotic and bad and was trying to step in to do something about it. So he just started fighting and throwing spirits he didn't like or agree with, that he thought were "bad" and making creation "bad" into hell, the "dark" place I started out in originally. And they seemed to get stuck there, they couldn't get out. I'm not too sure why.

Hell was never supposed to be anything other than my "spawn point." But Michael turned it into a prison for his enemies. I hated that. I didn't think anyone should be locked up. I wanted them to be freed but he wouldn't be convinced because he was certain he was doing the right thing and "cleaning up" creation. But he was becoming corrupted. He didn't want to acknowledge that he enjoyed the power.

Lucifer lead the side against him. He didn't agree with the changes Michael was trying to enact and was fighting against them.

I wasn't on either side. I was just trying to get everyone to get along and stop fighting.

And then I guess they realized what they did and all banded together to plot against me and that was the true rebellion.

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Ananke · 26-30, F

I remember now. When Michael saved me. At first I was so grateful. I adored him. I didn't remember who he was because I had fractured from that side of myself. I really did believe he was God. But I remember now. He was trying to cover something up.

I wanted to do anything to show my gratitude for him having rescued me from Lucifer and hell. And he asked me to marry him then, and become his wife Sophia. And I knew something wasn't right. I knew something was off then. I suspect he attempted to rape me. So I refused him. And he was furious with me. So he made me human. Unsure how as of yet. Michael was the one who had me make humans and originally designed incarnation. I don't know when. But he gave all these reasons of why he thought it would be a good idea and I thought sure why not. But he ended up using Earth the same way he used hell-as a prison. A dumping ground for his enemies. To trap them in mortal forms and make them vulnerable. He didn't tell me this was his intent, I thought I was making it all for different positive reasons only.

When I refused him, he sent me to earth. He said I needed to learn how to "submit". He trapped me in a human body. He was trying to cover up what happened and told everyone I had "volunteered" to be the first woman.

I never understood why Adam was older than me. For the longest time. I don't think I remembered anything when I originally incarnated. But I was told about "God's plan" and all that and about how I had to "submit" to Adam to basically jumpstart the human race. I of course failed because I was badly traumatized and also set up for failure pretty much, I didn't know this and thought it was my fault and I had failed God and messed up creation forever so I freaked out and "ran away" and things continue to go downhill from there. But again another example of Michael being gross and creepy. I always saw Michael as being more "grown up" than me. I saw myself as a playful kid, and he was a boring grown up. He was trying to hook me up with a grown up when I was like....12 or 13 my first lifetime. To condition me. So, so gross and wrong.

Ananke · 26-30, F

Oh. Sophia. I was "God's wife Sophia". It was the "perfect" image of me he created. His vision for me. What he wanted to present to everyone. It was all made up and super edited. Gross.

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