Taking a hiatus

I had a lengthy "discussion" with God. My magic, though well intentioned, was having negative consequences. I need more education in how exactly I should be using it before I just go wild and do whatever I please.

To give a rather sad example, I worked a great deal of magic to break free from oppression. This has resulted in a wave of suicides. I didn't and couldn't foresee that people would choose to break free from oppression by killing themselves.

I've also worked a lot of magic for explosions of growth in people. But I may have been forcing people into growth they weren't ready for, which can cause insanity and worse. Growth tends to occur under challenging conditions. I was probably absolutely spamming people with challenging conditions and they were getting very overwhelmed.

So I am stepping back for now and trying to work with God to figure out how precisely I can use my magic to truly help people. It's a learning process. I am trying not to feel awful when things go wrong. It's hard.

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jehova · 31-35, M

You are learning the sort of energy casting and intention. Spell work and energy is a careful art. Please go slow and feel out carefully to determine impact hone focus and learn control. Magic and energy work can be fun and rewarding. However it is very easy to jump into before looking. Gets out of control or not as intended quickly/easily.
Presense of mind is key.
Should you wish to discuss. . . Reach out lmk.
Planning is best.
Example
Goal/intent
Target
Amount of time and intended timeline of effect.
Focus and energy type usually as simple as good or bad but. . .
Expected/intended outcome. Given energy level/type put in.
Then review. So have fun but dont get in too deep things get off course easily.
Try some positive magic green blue or white as you hone your craft.
Wizards' orders. 😁
Have fun but be wary it can turn sour if you become frustrated intention can go wrong easily.

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Ananke · 26-30, F

@jehova Oh don't I know it. That one time I had to do damage control after a blowup of mine was exhausting. You basically have to do a whole other set of magic to counteract the first magic you did, even though you're now drained from working the initial magic. Bleh. Definitely way easier to adjust your intentions originally.

I would actually prefer cursing myself 😂 when my magic goes wrong I tend to accidentally cause significant harm or destruction in the world. It's anxiety inducing. It makes sense why God and other spirits in dreams while I was growing up would always hound me about needing to be mindful about how I used my abilities and I needed to work with them not against them. I always thought they were being spoilsports and felt rebellious about it. They literally just wanted me to be aware I can hurt people and to try not to do that 😅

Ananke · 26-30, F

@jehova When my magic brings harm to myself it's usually because I get carried away and start harassing things I shouldn't be. Proverbially poking bears with sticks, lol. Also when I work my magic it naturally draws attention from spirits. This sometimes causes trouble too.

exchrist · 31-35

@Ananke you are learning. Always remain calm.

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