I'm about to mentally collapse and I can't do anything about it because of money.

I'm far past miserable at work to a level I don't have words for. Everytime I am there I am just so mad and so angry that every tiny inconvenience that happens makes me explode. I was putting stock away and the box ripped. Annoying but no big deal usually but today I just went ugh kind of loudly and I was for sure heard because I swore my boss was about to drag me into the back and lecture me. Luckily he just asked if I was alright but I really just wanted to kick the box as hard as I could.

A lot of why I feel this way is because I feel trapped. I can't afford to take a mental health LOA and get 70% of my pay I need the full 100%. I can't take time off because I need money. I can't lessen my hours because again I need money. I can't just quit either because I need money. I don't have a savings and even if I did it wouldn't last long. I also can't find another job no matter how hard I try. Nobody responds back even or if I do get an interview it's crickets. I'm just trapped and have given up at this point. If I get fired someday at least I will be free. If I wind up homeless I won't have bills at least. I'm just done and over everything. It's just too impossible to land a win. Ha and everyone wonders why I do drugs.