I just walk around the house and get flash backs of the abuse.

I pray I can move on fully, I pray I can leave and find peace somewhere .. I have an idea of what I will be doing but the trauma is too much. I remember how my ex choked me to the point I was just gasping for air and brought me to the ground. He grabbed me by the hair and punched me on the side of my head. I’ll never understand someone like that . Then proceed to pretend nothing happened. I’m really going to take a self defense class , move to a gun state because I really want to protect myself, I should not ever feel this trauma every second of the day. I don’t know why I fall for abusive men or put up with it ,every ex I had was abusive but not like this one in jail.. I wish I put all of them in jail ,I’m really done with guys for a long time. Maybe one day when I establish myself and I make better choices in men.