I had a weird period where I was not really aware I was a "girl" when I was younger because it just wasn't something I focused on or adhered to, I was such a tomboy and liked women romantically. I was absolutely certain I was a boy until I suddenly went through puberty. Completely did my head in. I'm ok with having female parts and all of that and have zero desire to change that, But have absolutely never felt completely like one thing. I'm ok with being an ENBY who is female presenting and has some masculine qualities. Weird as that sounds.
@DancingStarGoddess I sort of wonder how many people have thoughts of wanting to change gender. Which is why I posted. My time was at least 40 years ago and lasted about 12 months. No negative connotations ensued.
@Gusman I get it. I didn't really "want" to do anything it's moreso what I already felt I was. I would have probably lived my life like a dude if nothing had changed. It's so hard to explain. I really didn't enjoy the thought of being a girl at the time I guess or see myself that way.
Out of disappointment in my body. My male colleagues who can keep up with me in skills have better endurance and physical strength than I do. I don't like the idea of being weak. And how my reproductive system requires more self care.
I do like much about being a woman. Just not that aspect.
Sometimes I’ve thought that aspects of my life would fit more with being female. But I’ve never thought about it much more than that, and I’m happy being a guy. As a young kid I went through a phase of dressing in my sister’s clothes for fun but that didn’t last long. Ultimately I’m just a gay guy who is a bit feminine, and that’s fine with me.
I sometimes imagine my mind being temporarily transferred into a woman's body, and then experience how both men and women treat me, compared to how they treat me now.
