walk my path alone

@LadyGrace you're very kind, don't worry about me really there's better people out there that need people like you you're one of a kind. It'll be all taken care of nbd.

@TheSmearedPen nbd?

@TheSmearedPen oh now I see. It IS a big deal! It's a big deal to me. I know what it means to hurt and I don't want to see anyone go through that. Especially rejection. I don't know you but I don't care who you are.... I love you just as you are.

@LadyGrace oh it's not rejection it's a general feeling on both personal and global issues in this world. You sound wise, I wish I was that wise.

@TheSmearedPen I bet you are. You just down right now and when we get that way then everything feels bad but don't forget these days will pass and you will find something that will make you happy again and feel better.

@TheSmearedPen what makes us anxious is when we look too far in the future. So we have to just concentrate on making the day at hand, count. Find something in the day that you like to do. Have you ever tried your hand it painting? I bet you have a lot of talents that you're not even using or maybe you're not even aware of. Painting just doesn't have to be perfect. You could try it out and see how much fun it is. You don't have to be real good at it, just have fun. Or do some writing. That's always therapeutic. Or get yourself a guitar and learn how to play it. I bet a lot of people need you that you don't even realize. I bet there's an old lady or an old man in the nursing home that would give anything to have a visit from you to cheer them up and that would give you a real blessing as well. Or even helping out a neighbor and that's a good way to make friends. Or, if you want to get really crazy, take everything out of your room and paint the walls a crazy color hahaha and redecorate your bedroom from things at the thrift store. That is always fun! You can find some really cool things at the thrift store or salvation army.

@LadyGrace honey, I'm a terrible painter really, I do write yeah pretty average though. I used to listen to people like you're doing now and it's odd when it's the other way around. So I thank you for your time,

@TheSmearedPen My pleasure. I'm not a very good painter either but I try. It is hard when you don't know what you're doing hahaha you sound like a really really nice person. I hate that people have abused the privilege of your friendship. And as far as wise, hahaha that is a laugh hahaha. At my age honey, I'm not wiser. I've just had more experiences since I'm older. That's all that is. When you know better, you do better. I still make lots of mistakes. But I try to do better every day. Even if it's just one thing. We never stop learning, that's for sure. And it's okay to make mistakes. That's only way we can learn. Mistakes are not a bad thing. They're not there to hurt us at all. They're only there to help us see where we need to make improvements so our life can be better and happier.