I Lack Faith In Humanity

I have lost so many people who I thought were my true friends this year. It turns out they are just self-centred, selfish and arrogant.
I find it so difficult to keep telling myself that I am not the one with the problem, when my boyfriend, bestfriend and a couple other 'friends' let me down and shat on my head.
The man who I thought was the love of my life made moves on me 2 days ago, yet tells me today that he doesn't want anything to do with me?! He used me to his advantage.
I keep getting my heart broken and the pain is unbearable

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SomeLikeItHot ·

It is difficult to love someone that wants all the power in the relationship.

deenaljc · F

@SomeLikeItHot I'm so broken hearted. He was all lovey-dovey with me 2 days ago after 8 months being seperated and then cut me off telling me he wants nothing to do with me?? He's manipulative and selfish.
I confided in him about personal things and yet he has chosen to treat me in this way. I feel like I'll never move on. I'm still in love with him yet he has treated me so badly

SomeLikeItHot ·

@deenaljc
I am sympathetic to your plight.
Some people are dangerous to us since we open up and trust them and they use this power to use us for their convenience. The real problem is you can believe that he will do this again.

deenaljc · F

@SomeLikeItHot He must be toxic inside, to use and abuse someone. I feel as though everything I have known is a lie

SomeLikeItHot ·

@deenaljc
Reinforce your personal boundaries with him and be careful with his persuasive words.
This is the perfect place to get anonymous support!

deenaljc · F

@SomeLikeItHot It's so difficult. My brain tells me that he is a sicko for treating me this way, but my heart still yearns for him. It's like being an addict. Even if your brain tells you that the drugs are bad, you still want that high and your heart strings are pulled

SomeLikeItHot ·

@deenaljc I was there with my first girlfriend. I allowed her to control the relationship so I do feel for what you are going through. We had a relationship when I was 19, 21 and 26. She found me the last time but I determined that I would control the relationship for the last time and get closure. If you ever go back to him or he tracks you down do not let him control your heart because you are being exploited. You will need to make decisions with your mind and not your heart and know that you must end it without hurting him or yourself. That was my experience. FYI she was 3 years younger than myself.

deenaljc · F

@SomeLikeItHot I don't think he'll ever want me. He told me he doesn't love me, and that he wants nothing to do with me after seducing me?! He also said that he's now seeing someone else, so he really just used me to his own advantage because he feels as though he can click his fingers when he wants. He said that I was just a "temptation". I feel so used and embarassed

SomeLikeItHot ·

@deenaljc Please know he is not done.
Resolve now not to be used again and make a plan when he comes back.